Oh man – it feels so good to finally let the cat out of the bag! I have been working on this novel for about two years, and really working on it in earnest for many hours every single day for the past seven months… and I barely told a soul! I told my wife just a few months ago, and around the same time told a select few other folks who have been helping me with various things, otherwise no one knew!
Every morning when I woke up before the rest of the house, every day the kids went down for a nap, every night when I got home from work, I fired up the laptop and got to writing. I have not taken the time to watch a television show in months. Do you know how hard it is to dedicate so much of your life to something and never talk about it to anyone? Why on earth would I do such a thing?
I guess I’m not 100% positive on the answer to that. When I was in the writing process, part of me was worried that I would stall out. I would run out of time, run out of energy, or would be besieged by a severe case of writers block. I hated the thought of telling people that I was working on a project only to have it fizzle out. Once the first draft was written, I moved on from worrying that I wouldn’t get it done, to worrying that it was terrible and I would never want it to see the light of day! It took a lot to get past that.
At this point, the manuscript is on it’s 6th draft, it has been through several rounds of test reading, and has been picked apart by editors, yet it is still terrifying to put it out there. I came to the conclusion that self-doubt is part of the process, and it’s time to get over that and put it on the line.
So now the cat is out of the bag. I wrote a novel! And it’s being published! If you are someone I see in everyday life, trust me, I’ve nearly blurted this out to you on many occasions, especially in the last month or so when it has been going through the final stages with my editor. I’m a pretty open person, and hiding such a huge undertaking was tough, so I’m glad that I’m not anymore. I can’t wait for you to read it, and I truely hope that you have as much fun reading it as I did writing it! And please – tell your friends!